Lost in direction recently. Lost in living intention somehow. Of course life isn't meaningless as I appreciate it. Life is just miserable. I'm wondering if I live to work and eat or work and eat to live. My mind just full of traveling plans but no plans for future. To Thailand soon and Hong Kong later. Curse and swear to live better after the idiot CCP exam. But things don't change. Time is wasting in feeling misery almost everyday though I was actually holding a book to read. What the hell have I achieved in these 25 years, guess nothing. Plan to own a house but with the $ I've now don't seem possible to make it. As so, there is a determination to do working holiday in New Zealand. Trying hard to collect sufficient ~RM15K in a year time in order to get there. Clubbing, no more......high tea, no more......expensive restaurant, no more.....not even once in a while. But traveling still go on. Think thrice now whenever make a spend. Don't blame me for being sudden stingy. ;)
Maybe this is a 'revenge' to me. When I'm trying to be loyal but loyalty no longer trust me. Blame myself not to start it from the beginning, blame myself playful & blame myself to send out all the stupid messages. People always say, loyalty is the best policy but in my dictionary: flirty is always the best policy, which is totally wrong. It got myself into deeply regret now on what I've done. Maybe Sozai is correct, distance relationship won't last. Blame me!
My flight period from Terminal LCC to S'pore was only half an hour by Tiger Airways. Mandy & Jelina were my travel mates for this trip. We were going to meet Mandy's peers (Loobing, Karen & Yanxu) who are studying and working over there. We decided to stay in Loobing's apartment at Clementi stop. His room is s small s 200sqft though we managed to save alot for accomodation.
Home alone after a long period of time is feeling sucidal. It makes me 'paralyze', lying on bed for whole day, sticking to my notebook, FB'ing, MSN'ing and blogging. I've did nothing though there are lots of works need to be done. I even choose to withstand water & motion which should be released out from my body. As a result, they adding my body weight and make me more lazy to wake up. I choose not to eat nor drink but sleep. Room become messy, mobile is running low of power and me still sitting there, day dreaming of things which can't happen in reality. These behaviours are due to there isn't someone push u from ur back to live ur life. Therefore, home alone too long is dangerous to me physically and psychologically.
I had been to Thailand last year May 2008 after taking the very last exam in my graduated school. Thanks to Aleng and Meinu for took me a lift to Penang International Airport where I departed. After touched down Sivanarbhumi Airport in Bangkok, I took cab to Khaosan Road where all my friends stayed, i.e. Antoine, David, Alex, Khola, Wandee and Ibrahim.
Khaosan road aka my street, Sin’s street...^^'''...where all sins happen here.Out of 9 days in Thailand (5 1/2 days in Bangkok, 1/2 day in Ayutthaya and 3days in Chiang Mai), I spent almost every night in night clubsssssss…..It was so so so crazy!!! A day before my flight, I was actually burning a mid nite oil for my last paper of my last year in graduated school (USM). Me neither sleep nor reading my notes and books for whole night. I was actually kept sms’ing Wandee, Antoine and David who been there 2 days earlier than me. They were waiting me for BIG parties in Bangkok. From SivanarbhumiAirport, it took 45 minutes to reach Khaosan road. Reaching there was almost 9pm, after checked in hotel, we were having dinner while planning for the next journey. Without filling my stomach full, I had bloated a big mug of Heineken in order to wet my throat and after that we were mingling along the night clubs’ street. Suddenly Sin Street appeared and that's the place we decided to play the BEER game.
They've ordered 3 towers of Chang Beer. Unluckily, I'm the one who kept losing the game and kept drinking for the first tower. After 5 mugs I down, lying on the table like half fainted...(-_-)...couldn't know what happen next, suddenly someone was shaking my back simultaneously and yelled: "Sin, wake up! Sin, wake up!". It was David's voice. Without saying a word, half digestedundigested green curry chicken were pump up from my stomach via throat and VOMIT out to my right…yaks! This incident is no longer a secret as Antoine had spread it to Vivien and others. So, speechless!('_' )( '_')
I thought I can just feel the thick epidermis of elephant, never thought that I can ride on it. This is an unforgettable trip in the deep forest of Chiang Mai, north Thai. My travel mate, Antoine was using the word ‘impressive’ to describe the situation when we were on top of the elephant. It took us around the bushy forest for 20 minutes, crossing river, tracking beside the slide (30o) hill which, u will never be able to track by your own feet.
It is never easy to tame an elephant, the native Thai uses a ‘Broken Captain Hook’ to poke their ears when they lost direction or try to pull grasses with their trunk. Goose bump raised on my thin epidermis because the poke injured the jumbo’s ear and fresh reddish blood drip immediately. Don’t u think this is cruel??...........but I ride on it, I think lagi cruel...he! (-_-)``` To prove that I rode on an elephant before, I had used almost half of my camera's memory (1GB) to snap the upside down pictures of myself. At this moment, I really hope that there is someone flying on top snapping the handsome picture of me on the poor little jumbo.
p/s: Meeting some really good & pretty university girls in Chiang Mai's club. They just came here for dance and fun but never drink nor get drunk. They will get back sharp after the night clubs shut without having affairs with guys....nice!!
She is wacky and she believes she is.
She loves the globe & thus she loves travel.
She hardly resists to all kinda temptations including shopping, foods, movies, etc.
p/s: She loves her 'oppas' so much. v(^_^)v
